Choices . . .
by Chris "DiGi" Timberlake · 01/19/2006 (2:34 pm) · 3 comments
(Retypeing, dang links made me loose my writing.)
You know choices even the small ones always effect each other, and i've made plenty of them over the years. I believe it was four years ago I decided to make the step from moding to full blown games. I've ran a team off and on for the past 4 years, met many wonderful people, formed a family. I've spearheaded atleast one mod team that blew up like a balloon. I've helped 4 people to stardome pretty much. (No i don't say this prideful.) (One of these guys makes over 400$ a month for parttime designs, and he started as a simple artist timid and all, and now he makes this: http://www.vov-clan.com/vigorhosting-site.jpg -- Then 2 more formed a studio, the programmer now 15 was offered a Job at the biggest IT Company in europe [Or so i'm told]. The other a SUPERB Concept artist, I have no doubt he will some day work for someone like ID Software, or the Unreal Creators -- The 4th, a fantastic artist whos work is nothing short of pure art.)
No doubt, these last 4 years have not been the greatest, or the easiest. However, i've learned so much, met so many people, and seen technolodgy GROW EVER SO FAST! I threw in the towel about a month ago, and swore i'd never come back. Now, i'm having second thoughts. My crew and I formed an idea which has yet to be done, it was actually written about just recently. [We created the idea 3 - 4 years ago! Ahead of the curve aye?] I really would like to finish this idea, and make it a game. However it seems like its so hard, and i'm not the patient type.
I feel I owe it to the people that helped form this idea, and to my family (the people i've worked with) to finish this game before I ship out, or atleast get it going. However, i'm afraid of failure. We've stopped/restarted this project more then 4 times, whether it be funding, lack of staff, or all of the above. (We actually had the ability to finish a alpha, and send it into a publisher to review it.) I'm kinda confused, I very much want to do this, and i have 190$ in the bank atm, and i could probably put 200$ a month into the project, just by myself. I'm just kinda confused about whether to start up or not, i want to very much. I think once finished it would be an awsome project, its a huge undertaking though. But I guess, what do I have to loose? Money? Time? Isn't that worth having some fun, and meeting new people?
You know choices even the small ones always effect each other, and i've made plenty of them over the years. I believe it was four years ago I decided to make the step from moding to full blown games. I've ran a team off and on for the past 4 years, met many wonderful people, formed a family. I've spearheaded atleast one mod team that blew up like a balloon. I've helped 4 people to stardome pretty much. (No i don't say this prideful.) (One of these guys makes over 400$ a month for parttime designs, and he started as a simple artist timid and all, and now he makes this: http://www.vov-clan.com/vigorhosting-site.jpg -- Then 2 more formed a studio, the programmer now 15 was offered a Job at the biggest IT Company in europe [Or so i'm told]. The other a SUPERB Concept artist, I have no doubt he will some day work for someone like ID Software, or the Unreal Creators -- The 4th, a fantastic artist whos work is nothing short of pure art.)
No doubt, these last 4 years have not been the greatest, or the easiest. However, i've learned so much, met so many people, and seen technolodgy GROW EVER SO FAST! I threw in the towel about a month ago, and swore i'd never come back. Now, i'm having second thoughts. My crew and I formed an idea which has yet to be done, it was actually written about just recently. [We created the idea 3 - 4 years ago! Ahead of the curve aye?] I really would like to finish this idea, and make it a game. However it seems like its so hard, and i'm not the patient type.
I feel I owe it to the people that helped form this idea, and to my family (the people i've worked with) to finish this game before I ship out, or atleast get it going. However, i'm afraid of failure. We've stopped/restarted this project more then 4 times, whether it be funding, lack of staff, or all of the above. (We actually had the ability to finish a alpha, and send it into a publisher to review it.) I'm kinda confused, I very much want to do this, and i have 190$ in the bank atm, and i could probably put 200$ a month into the project, just by myself. I'm just kinda confused about whether to start up or not, i want to very much. I think once finished it would be an awsome project, its a huge undertaking though. But I guess, what do I have to loose? Money? Time? Isn't that worth having some fun, and meeting new people?
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#2
john
01/19/2006 (4:17 pm)
Life, family, friends, money, desire, etc etc are all YOUR factors in making the decision to do it or not. Its tuff seeing others around you succeed...sometimes its luck, sometimes its skill and its the luck part that gets me mad. As far as ideas are concerned, Ive learned that by the time I have come up with an idea, I usually can find a dozen examples already done and 'out there'. Maybe your idea IS original and will be fun, then thats cool. But even if it isnt, it doesnt necessarily mean that the first one to try it will be the best one, it just means yours should be better or different.john
#3
01/19/2006 (9:24 pm)
Looking back, i've realize how close we actually were/are. All we need is art, alot of the base is done! I think i'm gonna buy 3D World Studio, and TSE soon!
Torque 3D Owner Chris "DiGi" Timberlake